Dear mouse,
Today is my mother’s death anniversary. Yeah you bet, she visited me late morning. I have just called the hospital to cancel an appointment that overlapped when I could not find the TV remote. Exasperated, I logged in to the computer, but the computer was also acting strangely.
Okay, so I said,yeah I am going to go out and get a piece of cake. She didn’t like the pancit or the “suman” that I usually cooked and served. That’s how I remember her birth/death anniversary.
One last attempt to find the TV remote, although it was not probable, I looked for it under the seat cushions of the sofa bed. There it is. I said hi and off I went to buy a candle and a small cake.
Last Sunday, she had already visited me.
She knew that I will be seeing the oncologist, Tuesday.
Her message was, “You can choose, you are given a new lease of life (which I am going to write a separate story) with the reminder that I will not be immuned from getting hurt and getting sad because that is the way it is. There’s no perfect life. ”
I asked her what did she mean by I can choose? Can I choose to die or to live longer? Isn’t that confusing?
She explained that I have been living on a borrowed life ever since I came back from being dead when I was just a few months old. Then the series of the near death experiences that I called myself a cat with nine lives almost brought me “home”. The closest was when I saw my deceased father extending his hands so I can go with him where there’s no pain and sorrow. That was when my heart “skipped a bit” when I was brought unconscious to the emergency room due to the high blood pressure. That was when I was undergoing personal crisis which no one noticed due to my outward happy disposition. Did I wish to die then?
More questions before she left, so if I choose to live longer, what would I do? Will there any mission in life?
My mother said, yes. You will receive it in self-destructing cd or whatever you may call it.
Hahaha, she’s still funny or is it just my brain hoping that I will have good news from the oncologist.
Last Monday, I watched Bruce Almighty. Jim Curry and Morgan Freeman are my favorites.
I remember Morgan’s lecture about miracle.
Yesterday, unlike our previous meeting before surgery, the lady doctor was all smiles. She asked me how I am. What would she expect me to answer?
The meeting was brief. I have to wait for my ride. Outside, I met a woman with silver hair. She smiled at me. She must be older than my mother if she were alive. She was accompanied by her daughter. I complimented her beautiful hair. She said thank you. I asked her if she had seen her doctor. Oh yes, she said. She asked about me. I said oh yes. And I said, it must have been a miracle. I did not elaborate.
The Ca t
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i remember a co-worker tripping without any physical explanation since the kitchen floor is free of any banana peelings, he feel down flat on his face, after he spoke another co-worker who was very popular in our office who had just passed away. Palabiro si Mang Romeo at kumakanta pa pag nagdedeliver ng mails
i have been a long time lurker here. tho i think i made a comment once or twice already. anyway, ever since i learned of your ordeal, i have been hoping that you will receive some miracle. salamt sa dios at binigay sa iyo. dito talaga sa buhay na ito, marami tayong disappointments na matatanggap. when we plant, there will always be seeds that will not grow or will grow but will die before reaching maturity. but it should not discourage us. for there will also be seeds that will grow to be very productive. (hanep sa analogy)uragon ka manay!
lorena,
multo na nagbibiro pa.
honey,
thanks, I am just biding my time and looking for the right words to use to write the story.
Behind this blog, there were many prayers going on across states and continents.
Behind this blog were the pains I endured and did not write so as not to depress readers.
Yesterday, I like to tell everybody I met about the story.
Uragon talaga, nakikilaban pa giraray. hehehe
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